STILL THE EVENT?

Well i must say i did pay a bit of attention here tonight, the food was o.k. the ambiance was good the music fine the centerpiece i forgot to do one and one of the wimmin mentioned it, i suggested that next time they could bring whatever they wanted as a centerpiece. I really realized i was not the best company tonight, the wimmin were very kind to me but i honestly must say i really did not deserve there kindness, i was a real s... all evening. We discuss where the next event would be i asked if someone else would like to have the event at their place and got the comment from one of the wimmin "and have to listen to you again about what kind of food" my comment to this was yep. The 18wimmin left 1 loaf of organic bread, 2cups of nutritional yeast, 3 bunches of organically grown mustard greens from her garden, 5 organically grown white potatoes, 3 dozen eggs from their chickens, 2lbs of home made mozzarella cheese(the womon who gave the cheese ask if this was acceptable since cheese was not plant based?) and the same question came up about the eggs. O now what do i do i love eggs and mozzarella cheese and neither is plant based. O chickens, O cows what now brown ones? Where does the truth end and the lie begin? 4boxes of organically grown pastas, 2lbs of organically grown navy beans, 3lbs of vital wheat gluten organically grown for making seitan and 100.dollars. I asked myself can i continue can i keep this up and for what am i doing this? Sleep and dreams are very important in helping to resolve many things. I need sleep. The decision is to meet here at my apartment in an unsafe part of town next time.