WHO? WHAT FOOD?

I really didn't think hard about how political food is until i became really involved with wimmin with food, not only the eating of it but also the growing, acquisition of the seeds to grow it, accessing food grown by others, preparing it for consumption, consuming it and acting out from the consumption of it, who gets what, who does not, which is considered womon's food, who to share it with and how, and these are only a few political aspects of food that i am becoming acquainted with. Well the (LESBIAN HOME DINING) event/action is again at my apartment located in an unsafe area. My alter asked me. why do i always speak of my apartment being in an unsafe area? I told her because when i first got involved in a (LHD) event/action and offered my apartment some of the wimmin told me they did not feel safe in the area where my apartment was located. My response at that time was this, i asked are you a womon? Yes was the answer, i said if you live anywhere where there are men it is wise to not feel safe, and to remain aware at all times. So this is my way of reminding wimmin to constantly remain aware. Well there are 3 more events at my unsafe apartment until we will decide where the next ones will take place. I am now ready again to think food preparation. So what will i prepare, i have enough food this time that i don't think i have to go pan yard. I will make Corny cornbread from some of the corn left from before, a big pot of steamed collard greens, macaroni in a sun dried tomato sauce, drink coconut milk, dessert tangelos sprinkled with raw sugar. Music will be barb ester's More Of It. Centerpiece i picked some firecrackers from the yard. I must remember to call the 18 wimmin that was the number from last time i will not invite new wimmin this time,however if other wimmin do so be it. I get so excited everytime there is an event/action of the (LHD) kind. So now make the calls. I called all the wimmin, i was not quite ready for some of the responses i got, however 13wimmin said they would be here. 5 of the wimmin said they had invited another womon so that brings the total back to 18. You know what my alter said to me? She said are numbers really important? Would i still be happy if only one other womon other than myself showed up? How would i feel if no wimmin showed up? What would i do with the food prepared? When i thought about all of this i thought of my friend the womon who is homeless who lives under I-95 not far from where i live. I thought to myself when is the last time i saw her when is the last time i took food to her and sat and had conversation with her? How is she? What clothing does she need? I became very uncomfortable with myself, how dare i sit and wonder about the comforts of those who have comforts and amid all of that worry about who the food would go to. I must go see my friend who lives in the I-95 condo under the overpass.