ME AND MY ALTER

Well well my alter said to me are you ready to confront your fears/demons? do you want to talk to me? would you rather wallow in your fears/demons? is it more entertaining or fun for you to feel helpless and a victim? Want do you need to do? What do you want to do? (Remember she said when you don't know what to do do nothing) So doing nothing i have put my hands to preparing for the next LESBIAN HOME DINING event/action. Now that my hands are busy, i asked my alter so what do i do with my brains? She said OK lets talk. She asked me of what was i so full of fear over? Her question caused me to think i had never thought of it the way she had asked of what was i so full of fear over? I thought to myself of what? of What? of what was i so full of fear over? I thought and thought and could not come up with an answer, of what was i so full of fear over? Maybe i said to my alter i need to ask of who cause i really can't think of a what. My alter said so then of who are you so full of fear over? The way she said the who annoyed me. I said do you have to say who like that, i mean who but why who? She said OK,who, and i must ask you why the annoyance over the way i said a word? seems to me that you are trying to get rid of a hot potato, or i just hit the huggler, and she said huggler just to annoy me some more because she knew my grandaunt who could not pronounce j"s would say huggler when ever she meant juggler. I said to her i really think you are trying to see to what extent you can go to get me really pissed off. Then she went on her high horses and said to me "surly you have better command of the English language and enough awareness to find another word to indicate you anger than "pissed off", o so now its all about me right ? she said i thought it was always all about you. I started to tell her what she could do with her freaking advice, but i had to ask myself so why are you so annoyed? I began to really think and think about my (I'm not sure if i should call them mine any more) fears and about who or what were those fears(that i some how have not been able to identify yet) about. Well in the midst of those thoughts me alter up ed and said ha ha you see now don't you? It really is more fun having fears for you than not, why don't you see if you can be fear-less fear-less fear-less, and then she started to sing this song that i know she was making up as she went, she sang to the tune of little sally walker sitting in a saucer. her song went o little little victim, sitting in her pitdom, rise victim rise, dry your weeping eyes, turn to the east victim, turn to the west victim turn to the north victim,south your victim lost victim, and with her singing of that song i think i got it. I think I Got It I Think I Got It All words all words, and then build feelings around the words, and then you get it? I think so.