WHO IS NEW

i never thought that i would be scared to met new wimmin i am, i quess all the tenets of group dynamics are in play the whole I C A thing that i thought i had forgotten. Inclusion, Control,Affection are all in place, the wimmin are coming to my apartment in an unsafe part of town i will miss calling her that if i should move.Now do i really want to move to THE HOUSE as they call it, deep in my heart i want to stay here, am i overlooking something that is good for the all of us, i like the apartment I'm in,i like the hood, i like the people. Me alter said what does your heart say? what does your mind say? what does your gut say? well my heart says stay here,my mind says move it is time, my gut says this is a wonder filled opportunity to move into another phase of my life with other wimmin and myself. Will i be able to pay the rent? what if the wimmin agree to move and i move and then they decide that they want to go elsewhere? What if don't like the people in the area? or what if i don't like the neighbors? What if feel responsible to stay there or what if some other wimmin want to stay there? Who will help me if i case i need more money to keep it running? what if i cant find wimmin who will or can do the work that i can not do? All these questions keep popping up in my head, what to do? Me alter said take it to the group. I asked is my life about the group or about me? Where does one end and the other begin? I guess i will know something soon enough. But this saying that my mother would always use came back to me just now "what if a bullfrog had wings" and she would answer "if a bullfrog had wings he would not bump his ass when he hopped. Gnats and Camels,Bullfrogs and Wings sounds like a good title for a song.