WHO HOMELESS?

i find it strange how my mind can go nuts on me in a matter of seconds. The womon did not call me homeless and what if she had? is there some shame in being homeless and if so why? so does having a home make me someone special? is it really possible to be homeless since there are some who say anywhere they lay their is home? Then i started thinking again about me being or rather putting myself in a state of homelessness. i wanted to go home immediately, but dark was coming and i had to make a decision on where i would be sleeping for the night. i had often stared at places under expressways but they had no appeal for me now. i was getting hungry i had eaten all the dried fruit in that short time, i remembered that i had taken 20 dollars in change with me but thinking about spending it all on food really made me nervous. i remember seeing homeless men and wimmin hanging close to fast food places, however i have never been a fast food eater and the fast food joints did not hold my interest, so i decided i would hang out at around a health food store or restaurant. now that was quite an experience i was a bit shamed to ask for food without working for it so i went to the rear entrance of the store and asked to see the produce manager,to my chagrin HE came, i was still clean cause i had only been homeless now for 7 hours, i asked him if there was some work i could do in or outside the store because i was hungry, wanted food, but wanted to work in exchange for it, he stared me up and down ( i said to me alter hey ain't i glad i wore clean tennis shoes, i had always noted before i became homeless that in America almost everyone look at your shoes before they look at your face to make quick judgements, i could tell HE approved of my shoes). HE said well i could give you something for the next hour or two but i don't want you to make a habit of coming here to beg, i assured HE that i was willing to work for the food, HE said OK here sweep up out here and when you finish that you can sweep the front sidewalks, i thanked him, before HE went back inside HE said i hope you do not expect your food for a week for the amount of work you will do, (i did not say anything to him, but to myself i said aw shut your fart face), me alter said now is that any way to speak after someone is willing to give you a job so that you can eat? i started to sweep the sidewalks. for that work two hours later HE gave me enough fruits and some veggies that i could eat raw and in addition gave me some cooked vegetarian foods from the deli. i store some in my pack, thanked him, walked down a few steps from the store, went around the front, sat down at one of the umbrella tables where others were eating, and started to eat, i was pleased, but i did really start to wonder where could i go to sleep and be safe. i have been homeless now for 8 and a half hours.