THE LONG JOURNEY HOME OR IS IT SO LONG?

I woke with a start, i don't know what startled me nothing nor no one was around,there were some men sitting under a tree shooting crap (or is that call shooting dice)? why would anyone want to shoot a crap or dice? strange I'm sure no womon named that one. so anyway i sat there for a bit watched a dog piss on the edge of a tree and wondered if the tree i had been laying under had been pissed on by dogs and men and how many sniffs of the piss had i inhaled while i slept, me alter appeared and said tis a little late now to wonder about piss you did not wonder that when you fell asleep, so if you need a piss calculation i would say that you probably inhaled 3000 breaths of dog and man piss, dog and man do, squirrel, rat, worm and who knows what other kind of piss, do, and do do. i started laughing so hard i started to actually cry and i could not stop crying, one of the men who had been shooting craps came over and asked me if something was wrong, i do not know what got in me but i said yes i am a lesbian and the world sucks, to my surprise he said yep and i am a black man and you are so right the world sucks but what you cha gonna do about that, i wouldn't die over it if i was you he said, i said yes i am alright, he looked at me shook his head and went back to shoot the craps, when i thought about what he was going back to do i started to laugh all over again and the tears started again, me alter said get a freaking grip womon so i right en myself, sat for a few minutes, gathered my stuff and started to walk to THE HOUSE again,no as Gert would say not again, now to begin. so i started to walk, i don't do ice cream, but i remembered one time i saw i little girl with a fudge -icle i wanted it so bad i thought about snatching it out of her hands and running away with it, i didn't do it but the thought came back to me as i was walking, but this time it was a womon walking down the streets toward me she was eating an ice cream cone and i wondered if i could snatch it out of her hands eat it and run without her catching me, me alter said i would not consider that if i were you, you have enough money left why not buy one? i thought about that a second and then begin to realize that i had acquired all of my food while i lived on the streets as a homeless and never paid cash for any of it, and the weirdest thoughts came to my head and i asked myself is this country so full that waste is necessary for money to be made and if so why should any food or anything else for that matter be paid for with money and money alone? i thought to myself did the sight of ice cream bring this on? maybe i should go back to eating ice cream,but there really is no going back is there? so i must go on walking to THE HOUSE,TO THE WIMMIN, TO MY MOTHER, TO MY SISTERS.