SISTER THIS IS THE TRUTH I THINK

i called my mother and my sisters today, one of my sisters said she wanted to talk to me not over the phone but in person, we agreed to meet this afternoon at her house, i do believe i know what she wants to talk about and i am ready. i am clean now bath hose felt good. as i was stacking the fire pit Gloria came out , sat on a rock, and said i feel that we need to talk, you know you walked away from here without telling anyone anything, and to tell you the truth i do not feel that i can trust that you will not do that again. i told her that she was correct in her thinking, i did not know if i would not do that again. i also told her that i had been living homeless on the streets because i wanted to know how that felt, and that i had learn a lot about myself and others i also promised that if i choose to become homeless again i would tell her before i left, and that i did feel really bad about not offering an explanation, but as Gertrude once said explanation is composition and i did not feel the need to compose at that time. she asked me what did i think would cause me to compose should i choose to leave again, i answered that i really did not know. i made a promise to her that if i were going to leave for a lengthy period of time i would let her know, she was satisfied with that. she asked me how did i see myself re-joining the group and also told me that there were some wimmin who were very angry with me and that i might need to address myself to this, i said i would eventually. she said she did not think it would be right for me to start to cook for the group until the group said it was o.k., again i answered fine. i have to give some serious thought to joining this group again, perhaps i will start a group on my own, with a whole new bunch of wimmin. i don't know yet, i will attend a group meeting before i make a decision.