I DID NOT LOOK IN THE BEDROOM I LOOKED IN

the kitchen, i wanted to look very badly wanted to look in their bedroom, as a matter of fact i wanted to go and jump in the middle of the bed and pretend it was me in the bed with, with, with, (me alter showed up and said i know what you're thinking kiddo) no she doesn't. i started to just crack the door to the bedroom you know just to look in, as i reached for the door i heard a car door slam, my heart jumped into my mouth wow supposed i had opened the bedroom door, they would have caught me, i went to the window facing the front yard and expected to see their car, but it was the postal car delivering the post. i took a deep breath out and walked toward the kitchen and started looking in the cabinets, drawers, refridge, and nooks and crannies, i was positively impressed when i saw so many healthy food stuff, no wonder they look so great, i went to the fridge and grabbed some OJ, drink some, and began to think of how great i would feel fixing them a meal, they have been so kind to me, so i will fix a meal for them and for me also, i mean they do not have to eat with me, but it would be nice. so i started to fix a meal. They had some fresh kale, collards, kohlrabi, sweet potatoes, carrots and broccoli, so i decided to make a vegetarian jambalaya with some quinoa pasta, it turned out really good. It was almost night time and they had not come back,i waited until eight o'clock and decided to eat, so i ate alone, outside, next to the fire pit, there was no fire. Time past it was dark and i lite the fire pit, secured the house for them, left on the porch light, and sat at the fire, wondering when they would get home. I wondered is this the way they felt when i did not show up at THE HOUSE, when i had gone homeless? I began to get nervous and jittery when 10 o'clock came and they still where not there. I had an herb to calm myself, me alter showed up and said on don't fret they probably took this time to go somewhere together now that they know that you are here, i said to my alter they don't know if i am here i could decide to go elsewhere you know, me alter said o but you won't, i heard a car door slam,voices, their voices, i started to jump up and say wow where have you been i have been worried about you all, but i did not i restrained myself and stay at the fire, i heard them come into THE HOUSE, someone went to the bathroom, the back door opened and it was Sally smiling and complimenting the fire, i told her that i had made food for them, she said o how kind and sweet of you, but we have eaten already, and i am sure the food will be good later, she said goodnight and closed the door, i expected more than that (me alter those are your expectations she said), the door opened once more and it was Gloria, she walked out the door, closing it behind her came over and sat next to me at the fire, i told her about the food,she thanked me and then asked me the strangest question, she asked was going homeless worth it? i asked worth what ? she looked at me smiled and said i think you know what i mean, stood up and said have a good night i am going in, and left. I threw some more wood on the fire it was hot as hell, i asked my self why the hell would you put more wood on the fire it's almost 97 degrees out here now, i heard me alters voice IS IT PASSION THE HEAT OF THE FLAME WHAT? and i answered what what?