WHO WILL I TELL THAT I AM HOMELESS?

Well called my mother to tell her that i was OK and fine, but i could not bring myself to tell her that i was homeless,not only did i not want her to worry, but i felt a shame about saying i am a homeless wanna be, i mean when i think about that it sounds absolutely nut-c ,so i called her and told here that i had been away with some friends up in the northern part of the state, she could or would accept that more readily than me telling her that i had chosen to become a homeless womon. i lied and told her that they had invited me up to spend a few weeks with them, i also lied and told her that they lived in the country and getting to a phone was difficult, she could relate to that one because she knew i did not have a cell, she aked if i would call her at least once a week to let her know that i was OK i promised i would, found out everyone was OK, told her i would call her on the week end. my alter showed up just now and of all things she said to me of all things, that i was still not womon enough to talk about what was really going on with me, that i was afraid of truth or i would have told my mother the truth about my decision to be homeless, maybe i said to her, but i did what i did and i am not changing it, i also told me alter that i saw no need to cause worry to my mother, her response (o cut the crap), i ignored her, i know she will go away if i ignore her long enough. so here i am a homeless wanna be, wondering what all my homed friends were doing, i thought about calling some of the wimmin in the group to see what was happening but changed my mind, besides i do not want to tell them yet that i am a homeless wanna be.
Is there really any dignity in being homed or homeless?