THE NIGHT TIME IS THE WHAT TIME?

well i didn't snatch the ice cream, i made it to the next 20 blocks it is getting dark and i am getting tired again, i wonder if that is really tired or anxiety about getting closer to THE HOUSE.
i remind myself that there is nothing to fear that i am going home, me alter asked me how did i think the wimmin would feel about me leaving without notice and now showing up without notice? she asked me what if they thought that you were not coming back and changed everything? what if G...... decided since i did not tell her where i was going, that THE HOUSE needed to be rented to someone else, i know that i did not give her notice but i did not give myself notice either, so how do i explain that? why do i have to explain anything, am i obligated to anyone? and me alter answered is anyone obligated to you? well nevertheless i am walking to THE HOUSE and for now i am calling her home. sun is setting, night is a little cooler, still is humid, feel the sweat dripping down my back. i thought that i had mastered the body thing and that my mind would wipe out anything i insisted on, but this hunger that i am feeling has my mind in a turmoil all i can think about right now is food, i thought to myself you know you have been really good about maintaining a vegetarian diet while you've been on the streets why not reward your self with some real food there is a Church's dead chicken fast food place, why not go get one of those BREAST? i thought to myself where did that one come from i had not had a thought of eating a dead bird in over 20 years, what made that thought show it self? i heard myself say hunger and me alter said bull-hockey your hunger could have lead you to think of cabbage or a piece of fruit as well, and i responded yea but it didn't, and besides the money i have i will not spend on a dead bird. me alter said well now what will you spend it on? she also said are you really that weak of spirit that you cannot allay your own petty hunger?