TO MYSELF I AM TRUE I THINK

sitting on the floor talking to Gloria and Sally was quite an experience for me and i would imagine for them also. i found out the the wimmin's group and the mix group was still going on, that the numbers had grown to 50 in the wimmin's group and the mix group had about 25 or less, i guess all is good. i asked about the food, what was being eaten who was doing the cooking where the food was being gotten from, and i was happily surprised to find out that the wimmin had continued to eat and prepare vegetarian foods and made attempts to access organic foods not only from the store but some of the wimmin had started going to an organic farm down in the southwest of the city also some of the wimmin had started to grow gardens with organic herbs and veggies and a lot of the food was being used from the gardens. an added event since my departure was the exercise night, this was when the wimmin had picked one night out of the week to do some sort of exercise ritual with each other, the exercise was chosen by a different womon each week. i really wanted to know more about Gloria and Sally's tryst but i did not inquire, and they did not tell me. i was curious if i would be able to stay there at THE HOUSE inside or out but i did not want to bring it up. me alter said do bring it up. i sat for about an hour with them doing most of the talking until Sally asked me so how was you time on the streets as a homeless? i thought to myself how did she know that i had become homeless i certainly had not told her. i looked at her for a bit and said i don't know if i have the braveness to do that again, she said never again, should you do it "it", would be anew, i agreed. i told her about my feelings on buying food since i had been on the streets, i mentioned the attitude of other people toward those who are seen to be homeless, i also mentioned how among homeless wimmin and men that there seem to exist a class system that i found that to be very strange, she said she did not think it was strange since we take ourselves with us no matter where we go and with that we also take our attitudes, perceptions, value systems and all other manners of being, it's just we don't live in a house. They told me that they really enjoyed living in THE HOUSE and that Sally had taken over the task of cooking for the group and the group events, Sally said she loved cooking and was really glad that i had gone away so that she could get a chance in the kitchen, she also said that if i like both she and i could continue to do the cooking for the group and that we could do it together or take separate days, i told her that i would give it some thought. i mentioned that i had seen some tricycles in the yard, that's when Gloria said that they belong to two little girls who come to the meetings with their mothers and the group thought the tricycles would help to entertain them while their moms were in the meetings. i really breath a sigh of relief, and felt more inclined to ask about living in the back yard, cuz i could not see myself living in the house with Gloria and Sally. Gloria seemed to be reading my mind again and at that place said you can stay in the house with us if you like, she nodded her head look toward Sally who was also nodding her head in agreement, i thought to myself live in THE HOUSE with both of them well i don't know about that, the backyard seemed fine for now i said. At this point Sally asked me if i wanted a bath i smiled and said wow our roles certainly have switched, then i asked her do i stink, she smiled and said water would not hurt your body right now, with that i said to her i think i will do what you did when i first asked you the same question when we met, and with that i stood up went out the back door undressed and begin to rinse and soap myself down, the water felt good, i felt good, i started to cry and that felt good.